My mother

Our mother is coming this week for our birthday. All I've been thinking about is when she came last year. And, how much I hated her the whole time. But, loved her, too. Anyway, I blamed myself for how much I hated her and how miserable I was. She wanted me to blame myself.

I went to group today, not therapy. I spoke in general terms to people who really do not understand my relationship with her. But, I think the leader did understand.

I got to thinking that she purposely made me miserable. I don't even know how. She just does. Am I ever going to know how to respond to her when I see her????? I accept that I can never relax around her. But, if she's always going to counter with something totally new...what do I do!!!!!

Argh. I hate that woman.