Land of a 1000 Dances

Well, we've been doing a lot of work on our digital journal. A lot of parts work. Today, we found the part who had the repetitive thought loop for the last few years. We asked him to put it away, and he did. The head is so much quieter, the body is more relaxed, and we are less depressed than we were. I am so tired, though.

We've been doing an awful lot of whining the last few months. I was aware of that. We were also doing it IRL. I'm hoping that it will lessen.

My head hurts. There's also mumbling going on, so hopefully, we can handle it okay.

Little altars everywhere....

Good book....

We have alters coming out every couple of days. I guess I could get a book online about working with alters yourself. I know you need a therapist. We have a generic therapist. And, not a hope in hell of finding a trauma specialist in a town of 15,000 people. This town has access to psychiatrists with vidcams.

Behind door number 1?? Insomnia!!!!

Damn addiction!!!!!!!! I didn't take a muscle relaxer tonight, and I can't sleep. I'm a little tired, but not sleepy yet. I don't know if I'll break down and take one.

[edit :
Fuck it, we took one! We also found a part who was keeping us awake. Don't know what we're going to do to help her.]