Tuesday, November 25, 2025

I am frazzled

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I am so stressed. I think my strong sense of justice is deeply offended by what's going on in my country. I'm also stalled in my per...
Tuesday, August 26, 2025

So much has happened

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I have.had so much healing and growth in the last 8 months. I'm pretty sure I have DID/OSSD AND autism. But, I think my parts are energe...
Tuesday, May 7, 2024

I did get a formal diagnosis of autism

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I was formally diagnosed in August of 2023! Sheesh, I need to update this thing more. I have been learning so much. It is such an incredible...
Saturday, June 3, 2023

changed URL and title of blog

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I changed the URL and title of this blog. I don't know if I can change the bio stuff on the blog. That might have to remain as is. My id...
Wednesday, May 31, 2023

Wow, making a second post this year

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I think I have autism. I know I've said it before, but I'm pretty sure now. I have an assessment appointment in a week. I've sta...
Sunday, January 15, 2023

We came upon an inner world chat app!

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It's called Antar. Kathryn, our ISH, is very excited. She's wanted us to communicate for a long time now. So far, we've only com...

I may have autism and DID.

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I'm in the middle of an autism assessment. It may be that I have autism and DID. I have a lot going on right now. Thinking about going n...
Thursday, September 1, 2022

Can't sleep

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I just broke up with my boyfriend.  He had a problem with me setting boundaries and saying no. So, I don't feel bad about it. I know I d...

Can't make changes to the look of this blog

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I've had this blog for a hella long time. It seems I can't make changes to the look of it to reflect my changes in mood and attitude...
Tuesday, October 20, 2020

Jeezly wow...

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I haven't posted in soooo long. I kinda forgot about this blog. I've done a ton of autism research, and it fits me more than anythin...
Friday, December 7, 2018

Been doing autism research

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Hrrmmm. I don't know what got me started thinking autism might be my neurological problem. But, it's been in the last 6 months. Well...
Tuesday, October 30, 2018

Tired

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I want to hurt myself. Funny how my mood went from "okay" to "crushingly depressed" in 15 mins. I was reminded of how di...
Saturday, October 20, 2018

Feel like a yo-yo

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We read through our digital journal, and wow, we have made so much progress. There are days when I'm depressed, and feel I haven't m...
Thursday, October 11, 2018

Starting on programming. I think.

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It's strange to us that it would seem so mundane. What's come up first are things like self-sabotaging. I supose it makes sense. If ...

Haven't updated in a while

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We got to a point where we were able to admit we were only dialoguing and blogging after we had taken our night pills. So, we have started t...

Mentioned meeting a survivor

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Not that anyone cares, really. But, in one of my entries I mentined meeting a survivor, and my thinking was obviously buggered up. That pers...
Wednesday, September 12, 2018

bleh

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I am having a crappy week, and it's only Tuesday (night). At least, when I wake up, the week will be half over. It's not me that...

Insomniac part

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We are flummoxed. After some inner work, our fronter from 8 years ago has surfaced. We've always wondered what happened to our main fron...
Thursday, August 23, 2018

Land of a 1000 Dances

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Well, we've been doing a lot of work on our digital journal. A lot of parts work. Today, we found the part who had the repetitive though...